Wednesday, October 28, 2009

Rebuilding

While cleaning the other day I came across a little booklet that I have had for the past three and a half years. It is a booklet to one month of a year long bible study called "Our Journey", the March edition to be precise. It was my mothers, she had taken to giving me the booklets when she was done with them so I would have a regular bible study to do while I lived in Fresno. The others I have gotten rid of, but this one I could not.

The signifigance of this booklet comes from one day in it, the fourteenth, which was a Tuesday in the year of 2006. That day I had received a phone call with some terrible news. With that phone call I felt part of my world shatter, my heart break, and a darkness settle over me.

My mom was visiting and had her bible study with her. When I arrived home from school, several hours early, she had just read that day's study, and oddly enough, it was relevant to what had just happened.

This particular day talks about rebuilding. When trials come into our lives and our world is shattered, it talks about picking up the pieces and rebuilding our lives. This was an essential key part to helping me cope, so that I may be there for the people closer to the situation than I was.

I just read that day again. I will admit, I cannot read it without crying. There is still an emptiness that I feel whenever I remember that day, but when I read the verses from that day, the feelings of emptiness are eased. One is part of my life verse, Habakkuk 3:17-19. The other is from 1 Peter, and that is the verse I share now.

1 Peter 1:6-7
In this you rejoice, though now for a little while, if necessary, you have been grieved by various trials, so that the tested genuineness of your faith---more precious than gold that perishes though it is tested by fire---may be found to result in praise and glory and honor at the revelation of Jesus Christ.